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[12 Jan 2002|03:27am] |
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Tonight turned out being pretty good. I didn't know if my roomate had gone to the TKE party so I just decided to go to the party that Carla was at. Her friends were all mostly band people but they were really nice. I don't care what anyone says they are some of the most down to earth people you will meet. I was there for a while and then Jon came and picked me up and took me over to "ghetto frat row" which is across the street from the school. The party there was packed! There was like a hundred people stuffed into this little ghetto house and it was getting trashed. They had a keg and a lot of other drinks but I didn't drink. The police came a couple of times... but they didn't make us leave. I spent most of the time meeting people, I swear I must've been introduced to like 50 people tonight. I don't remember any of their names. Heh... it was fun though! I was kinda eyeing this one guy that I saw at the barbecue. I can't remember his name for the life of me though. I think he's pretty cute, he has a cute face... he's kinda slim and tall. He has dark hair and his eyebrow pierced. I dunno what it is about me and guys with piercings on their faces. (Ex: Chester and the lip ring) But I just love it. Sexxxxaaaay. lol
So I talked to him for a bit, but I think that he was kinda drunk so that was like BIG turnoff. I also think that this guy named Blake is pretty cute. In a different way than the other guy though. I was talking to him for a while. He's probably about 5'8, BUFF, plays lacrosse and he's from NJ. Oh my god... it's like me if I was a guy. lol... except for the buff thing. Anyways, he's really nice and he's good to talk to. I dunno though. I'm not thinking about relationships right now because I don't want to get hurt. And I just enjoy meeting new people right now, that's all I wanna do.
Now I don't wanna sound like a hoochie or anything, but I noticed that there is a lot of boysboysboys out there that I have not noticed in the past few months. I guess I have been way to preoccupied with getting everything in my life back in order to notice that I could possibly be missing out on something. There's still a lot of things that I need to settle with myself; self esteem issues, money problems, I need to find myself first. But I think that my eyes are opening little by little. I have my low points where I am very depressed but I always realize that there's a lot to look forward to. ;)
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| Insecurity |
[11 Jan 2002|10:19pm] |
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Why do I feel so crappy about myself lately! I went out and ran a bunch of errands today and I went food shopping. I was so tired while I was shopping that I almost fell asleep in the store. Heh... I came back here and made myself dinner and then I was supposed to go to this TKE party. I wasn't really in the mood though. Like Jake hasn't even asked me if I was going because I know for a fact that the only reason he wants me to go is so that I can bring my roommate with me. I know that sounds like I'm jealous or something, but I'm not... I'm just a bit ticked off. He comes here on Monday to see how I'm adjusting to school and since then he hasn't stopped by or given me a call. Since he met Vanessa that is... yeah he's been over here a lot but he doesn't even say hi anymore he just goes straight in her room. Yesterday he was here and I called his cell to ask him what time the barbecue was at. I didn't know that he was right next door in her room though. >=\
I guess I normally would just be like... whatever, he's just being dumb. But I barely know anyone here so it kinda sucks. Oh well...
I went to the music store and got a few pieces. I've decided that for my fast piece I'm gonna sing "There You Go" by Pink because I know that I can sing that one. I couldn't find anything else and I was about to give up and I saw that one. I remembered that when I went to California I was recording Antwan dancing to that song and I was singing while I held the camera and when my friends were listening to it they were like, "Hey you sound pretty good." Heh... so I'll do that one! For my slow one it's between 3.... One Moment in Time by Whitney Houston, Hero by Mariah Carey and Angel by Sarah McLachlan. I have the piano parts for all three. I just dunno which one to do!
Anyways Carla just called me and invited me to another party. So I'm gonna go with her instead of to the TKE party because I don't feel like dealing with egotistical frat boys tonight. Heh.
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| Busy busy |
[11 Jan 2002|01:25pm] |
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Today was a good day! I got up around 6:30 and went to my first two classes. I took a chem quiz and that went pretty well. Then I went to history which was boring because I read like the first two chapters already and also my professor talks so slow and he says "ummmmm" like in between every word he says. So then I went to the student union between my other classes, had breakfast and read some more history so that I don't have to do it this weekend. Then I went to my Music Appreciation class which was boring.
I just got back from the gym about 20 mins ago. I had so much energy, I ran like 2 miles and rode the bikes there. My legs are starting to actually show some resemblance of muscles in them again. I was so lazy for the past year or so that my body is screaming in pain from the exercises that I've been doing. LaX starts on Sunday though and I'm excited about that.
I just got off the phone with Disney Auditions. They scheduled my audition for next Friday at 4:30 pm at the park. I can't wait! I'm not sure on what songs I'm gonna do. I was thinking about singing On My Own from Les Mis, but I think that it's kinda low in some parts. It's more of a Alto part than Soprano. (I'm soprano) I could pull it off, but there might be something that I could do better. I don't know that many musical theater pieces. My mom suggested that I do something from a disney movie, but if I do that I gotta do it perfect because they know those extremely well. I gotta make sure that I'm prepared because this could me my chance to make it into some kind of singing career. I could use that on a resume and I could also get some more exposure. Who knows? Anyways, it pays good and it will be so much fun. That's not like a job to me, its more like play. :D
Well I'm gonna go take a shower and go to the mall to get my audition outfit and some sheet music.
Hope everyone's having a good Friday!
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| Awwweeee |
[08 Jan 2002|12:02am] |
They're giving Corina, Corina on TV, that is the most adorable movie I've ever seen. I'm all choked up. Ack ack... hehe :)
Nite nite everyone
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| Good Morning |
[07 Jan 2002|07:14am] |
Well I'm about to leave for my first class in about 15 mins or so. I'm nervous...
It's freezing out and I have to walk across campus! Ahhhhhh Heheh
Last nite was irritating to say the least. Apparently Dave has sunk to the level of spreading rumors and lies about me and having his little 15 year old girlfriends harass me. Pathetic. We all know he's a compulsive liar... so I'm not even gonna touch what's he's saying. All I'm gonna say is that my true friends know the truth.
I've never met anyone that can't stand rejection as much as him. I tried to be mature. He apparently says that he's moved on with his life. Yeah right... if he had then he wouldn't be wasting his time talking trash about me to his friends... he wouldn't care right?
Well this is the last post that's gonna be about him and I'm seriously considering putting all my entries friends only and private because people are so nosy.
Well I'm off!
:)
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| Sunday boring sunday |
[06 Jan 2002|02:53pm] |
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Well I woke up kinda late this morning, and I changed and went to the gym. I was supposeed to go with Kady but she told me she wasn't going until later today and I was ready to go so I went on my own. I ran two miles on the treadmill! I kept wanting to quit... but then I kept going and going and now my legs simply feel like jello. lol
After that I came back to the room and took a shower and my other roommate Susan was moving in. So there's three of us staying here now. The fourth girl is supposedly gonna be staying tonite (I met her already). They seem really nice, we're gonna go to the store later and get some stuff for the apartment.
Tomorrow is my first day of classes and I'm nervous! I need to buy books still and still no luck getting a job. I need money! AHHHH!
Well that's it for now :)
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| Interesting nite |
[06 Jan 2002|01:14am] |
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So my food came out really good and after dinner I was sitting around and the phone rings... and it was Evan. (I had called him earlier and he was returning my call). He tried to cheer me up and then my phone card ran out so we got on the computer on yahoo with the webcams. Shannon was also on there so I made a chat room and we all went on there and we were playing truth or dare... lol talk about boredom.
We were having fun at first, Shannon lookin' old... Evan making weird faces... me looking pale... then Shannon asks Evan a question. He's like.. "So what happened when we went up north to Akuyeri?" Seee... when Evan and I were still together, Shannon and Evan and some of there other friends took a trip up to a city in North Iceland and stayed the weekend. So Shannon asks him what happened... and so I'm thinking, "Why is he asking him what happened up there?" So I see on the webcam... Evan gets all serious, I get all serious, and Shannon is like prying at Evan to tell more.
Now, Shannon has insinuated that Evan cheated on me before... which is total absolute bullshit because I know that Evan never did anything like that. So Evan tells the story right... he says that they were at a club, and a girl kissed him outside and they brought her home. Now, I don't think that that's a big deal because Evan pulled away from her and he had told the girl that he had a girlfriend back at home. I wouldn't have thought it was a big deal back then because I trusted Evan (and I still do). But the thing that ticked me off was that Shannon (who is supposedly a good friend of Evan's) brought something up like that to try and cause problems between me and Evan. Shannon was like, "Well I didn't think it would be a big deal because you and him broke up." Now, that's bullshit because he knows that I still care about Evan very much and of course it would hurt to know something like that.
I guess the thing that bothered me most was that Shannon was simply trying to start trouble. There was no reason for him to bring something like that up. I got out of the chat room after that and Evan called me up. He was like explaining what happened that night, but I didn't think that it mattered because of course I believe him. It pisses me off that Shannon tried to put him in a awkward situation like that. I guess we have to both be careful what we tell him. It's like Shannon enjoys telling me things that would hurt my feelings. He would like rub in things about that girl that Evan was seeing before because he knew that that would hit a sore spot. That's not a real friend...
I started crying when I was on the phone with Evan... not completely because of that whole Shannon thing... but just because of a lot of things. I was so depressed all day long being here alone... and then that just was the icing on the cake. It's hard moving to a new place. I'm usually pretty good at meeting people... but sometimes I can be very shy and insecure about myself. I'm not familiar with it here and I have a lot of stress. I want to make friends and go out... but I'm scared at the same time. Another thing is that I miss Evan a lot. I wish I could see him and spend time with him and not fight like we used to. I regret not making the most of the few times that we actually did see eachother. He's such a sweetheart. If you're reading this... *muah*
Anyways, after that convo with Evan... I was getting ready to go lay down in bed and watch TV. But then my cell rang and it was Jake. He told me that him and some of his TKE brothers were down by the wellness center which is close to my apartment. So they came over here (all like 5 or 6 of them) and came inside. They stayed in here for a few and then we all went over to visit one of their friends, Erica. She was really nice and she was telling me a little about her sorority, Chi Omega. (I really want to join a sorority). She told me that she's gonna let me know about the sister bonding events and everything that they're having. I'm lookin' forward to that. Anyways we were there for a while and then we went over to Kady's lil apartment. She has such a cute apartment! I'm gonna be going to the gym with her tomorrow. I also have to go buy my books!
I better get to bed... all in all a very emotionally draining day.
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[05 Jan 2002|07:19pm] |
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I cooked and it came out good! I just finished eating it and I couldn't believe that ME the person who can't even boil water... actually made a home-cooked meal. Yay! I won't starve while I'm up here.. hehe
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| Nightmare in the Kitchen... part 2? |
[05 Jan 2002|06:23pm] |
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I'm cooking again... we all know what happened the first time I tried to cook when I went to Iceland. This is my second attempt. I'm making rice and beans and pork chops. I am seriously missing my mom's cooking. So I thought that I would try my luck in the kitchen. Let's see how it turns out....
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| I'll be here awhile... ain't goin' nowhere... |
[05 Jan 2002|04:26pm] |
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Not much going on lately... just trying to settle into the swing of things here in Orlando. It's so different from Miami (and that's a good thing). I got up around 10am and then I cleaned up around my room a little and ate something. I was talking to Jake online and he told me that I should apply for a job at Home Depot because they are hiring here. So I left and I drove down Alafaya and I realized that there's like this huge area of stores and stuff over there that I hadn't seen. So I applied for Home Depot, Target and Bed, Bath and Beyond. Now I better a job soon because I am not liking this whole being poor thing. Hehe... I had forgotten how awful job hunting can be.
I'm kinda bored... my roommates really haven't moved in yet, they're supposedly coming in today. Vanessa's out and about somewhere. I'm a bit homesick and I wish that my friends from WPB would come back here already so that someone could show me around already. How am I gonna go clubbing if I don't know where they are!? Hehe
Well nothing else to write, I'll be back later
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| lol |
[05 Jan 2002|12:01am] |
The infamous Amy just IM-ed me! She seems really nice regardless of all that stuff that Dave told me about her. I bet he will tell everyone the same horrible stuff about me. I don't care though because those who know me will take my word over his. He turns into a very hateful person when he doesn't get his way....
She was telling me that I did the right thing by getting Dave out of my life. lol... Dave really has a bad rep doesn't he. I'm glad that I'm thru with that in my life... I just thought that it was funny how many IM's I've gotten today telling me that I did the right thing. Too funny. That was the third IM I got today!
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| Chillin'.... |
[04 Jan 2002|11:53pm] |
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Today was a pretty boring day. It was so cold out that I just didn't want to do anything but lay in bed under those big flannel sheets. Hehe... I managed to pull myself out of bed though and run those errands that I had to. I met all my roomies and they seem nice. Only one stayed tonight though, the other's are moving in tomorrow. Vanessa stayed... she's really quiet though. They all seem pretty quiet, or maybe it's just that we're all complete strangers. Heh... I hope that they are nice girls... I've never lived with anyone that I barely knew. At UM I always lived with Shelly and I've known her for half of my life.
Anyways I was talking to Kady on the computer and she said that the new gym is really nice and it just opened today. I don't have many plans for tomorrow so I think that I'm gonna get up and go there. Time to get in shape for Lacrosse!
It's weird not knowing anyone here. I feel kinda lonely I guess. But I'm not gonna be sad about it because I'm sure that once classes start and stuff I'll meet more people. Also I want to rush this semester for a sorority! I'm really lookin' forward to that.
Well I guess I'm gonna hit the sack... :)
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[04 Jan 2002|06:42pm] |
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I finally got my ethernet working... that was quick!
I just got off the phone with Evan, it was good talking to him and I'm glad he's back. He told me about his trip to Paris and it sounded like such a good time. I wish that I could've been there. Ohhh welll though... he was telling me that he's thinking of going to Spain in June or July. He told me that I should come. WELL I just might. Heheh... I'm gonna start saving! I looooooove to travel, and Spain must be gorgeous. Now I'm determined to save up every cent that I have to take a summer trip to there. I missed out on Paris, but I'm not gonna miss out on this one. EVAN you better believe it that I'm gonna save up. =)
Anyways I'm sitting here relaxing in my room and I'm tired. I met all of my roommates finally. Vanessa is the girl that lives next to me, she's from Westin, FL. The girl that lives in the first room is named Susan and she's this blonde girl (just like PK said). They all seem nice and I'm excited to be meeting new people.
Amanda just called! It was so good to hear from her. I miss everyone at home and I've only been gone like three days. I wish that her and Shelly went to school here too, we could all get an apartment and that would be so much fun. =)
You guys better come visit me here in Orlando or I will be very sad! Heheheh =)
I'm thinking about cooking some rice or something but I'm afraid to burn down this new kitchen.
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| Gay = Dave |
[04 Jan 2002|10:40am] |
There had to be 2309483209843209 complications. 1 MAJOR one beiung yur manipluative, controlling, self-centered, military stupified ass of an ex-boyfriend.. who was controlling you this WHOLE time.. giving you advice about me.. "oh, he's not being biased." I'll bet when you told him about this, he was all like, "Well, I'D never do that to you.. blah blah blah.. I am so sorry.. blah blah blah." Yeah, I'll bet he'd be sorry when me and my team blitz him and show him what I am really made of. Stone.
You know what Dave, you are the one that needs to grow up and get some fucking balls and act like a man for once. You need to stop saying all this bad stuff about Evan because the fact of the matter is that you're jealous and you have been the whole time. I don't even know why you are bringing him into this because it doesn't have anything to do with him.
Don't tell me what he said to me, because you have no idea... contrary to what you believe he helped me to try and not hurt your feelings. He never said anything like what you think, he just tried to give me advice. So don't put words in his mouth when you don't know.
And don't ever call him stupid again because he has more of a mind than your weak ass will ever have. And when I say WEAK I mean mentally also. You have problems DAVE! And I'm not the only one who thinks so. Open your eyes and realize that you have ISSUES that you need to figure out. Go ahead and try and find your "princess"... you'll just scare the shit out of her with your clingyness and you're insecurity.
As for your hockey team. What kinda threat is that? You need a team to back you up? I could take you on my own. Stone? You're kidding me. HAHAHAHA
You know what, you're ridiculous. I have no time for this and I wouldn't even waste my time fighting or confronting you and I'm sure Evan feels the same.
GET A LIFE!
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| Day 2 |
[03 Jan 2002|10:10pm] |
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Today was a pretty good day. I got up at about 8 and I went to run some errands. I turned in my loan application and then I went to get some job applications. It seems like no one is hiring around here. I came back here and ate lunch and then I went driving around to see what's in the area. There's a lot of stuff nearby but it's not as congested around here as Miami. I am defintely liking this place. I came back here and was hanging up some posters when one of my roommates came in. Her name is Amanda and she seems really cool. She came with her cousin and they invited me to come with them to dinner. So we all went to Applebee's and talked and stuff and that was pretty nice. I'm really looking forward to meeting the other girls. I love meeting new people and being somewhere different... =D
So tomorrow I have a lot of stuff to do again. I have to go drop my Physics class and add on Literature and Government. I think that it would be better to take two easy classes and fill my general education requirements than to take on too much. If I get those two classes out of the way then next semester I can start taking all the cool forensic classes like criminology and trace evidence and all that good junk. And I won't totally stress myself out like last semester.
It's sooooo cold here! It's gonna be like 32 out tonight, I have the heat pumpin' in here. Brrrrr
About all this drama with Dave... I don't need it and I'm not sweatin' it at all. I have more important things on my mind right now. He needs to grow up. And maybe when he keeps getting responses from girls like this, he'll realize that he is obviously doing something wrong. Or else he can keep being a retard. Whatever. Hehe
UM is incredible, they're kicking Nebraska's ass. 34-0!!!! WOOHOOOO
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